Feeling worried

Today im not feeling very confident... im so worried that things are going to go badly for us and little Snowflake.

This morning "in the name of research" as a bit of a joke between me and some of my online friends I did another HPT (home pregnancy test) as well as an OPK (ovulation predictor kit) - they say you can use an OPK as a HPT.

My expectations were that my HPT from this morning would be darker - much darker - then my HPT from 2 days ago.... I was sadly wrong. My test from this morning looks no darker at all... in fact, my first instinct was that it was now lighter... 2 days later.. this can't be right! Your HCG should at least double every 2 days so I was thinking the line would be 2 times darker... sounds logical to me. But it is lighter!!!

(please see the pic for test results. the one on the left is the test from 2 days ago. the one in the middle is todays HPT and the one on the right is the OPK that I did today)

I have to call the specialist this morning to find out about "pregnancy monitoring" so hopefully she can get some referrals for some bloods tests to me quickly so I can find out what is going on.

Please please please Snowflake... please don't leave us early :(