This time around I wanted to tell the daddy in a different way.. the last two times I have bounded back into bed.. woken him up and announced that I was pregnant again, while crazily shaking the home pregnancy test in front of his barely awake eyes... His response, normally a "Wow, thats great news" He would then grab me, hug me.. roll over and go back to sleep... now to be fair.. the man isn't what I would call a morning person - so I would have to feel lucky that I got that at all.
While he was still asleep I grabbed everything I needed. I had typed out and printed a poem I had found on brides diary (I think thats where I got it from). I had bought a little brown bear and a baby rattle. I set all these things up where I thought he would go first (after the toilet anyways.. didn't think that leaving it on the toilet seat would be a good story for when Snowflake is older) - so I set it all up in front on his computer. The poem in front of the screen.. the teddy and rattle holding it up.. and the HPT sitting up showing off those two beautiful lines from the little brown bears lap :) I then took some pics of the whole set up.. very proud of myself for having the patience to wait till he found it... and then I crawled back into bed.. unable to sleep.. but so desperately wanting this time to be different then the last two times.. right down to the way I told the man.
So there I lay.. waiting patiently... well, sort of... knowing that he isn't going to be up for a few hours yet. So I take out my laptop and I start looking up due date tickers... i wanted to find one with a snowflake on it.. I found one, but not so much a fan of it.. oh well... it will do for now :)
When he finally woke up.. he got up... and then went into the kitchen and tidied up in there... lol, that was not where he was meant to go.. it took all my power not to push him towards the computer room. I slowly followed him around the house.. trying not to look suss. He didn't seem to notice me hanging around so that was good.. eventually he went into the computer room and he didn't even sit down on his chair.. he looked down and said "whats this" I said nothing.. I just looked at him from the door way, waiting for it to sink in. "Are you pregnant" he asked... I nodded. He then demanded I come and give him a hug.. and I fought back tears. He looked so happy.. I knew he would.
Now we both have to overcome our fear of what might happen. We are both going to be positive and both think the best.. we both want to enjoy it for what it is.... and if we have little Snowflake with us for 1 week.. 2 weeks.. 1 month or 9 months... or even better... for the rest of his or her little life... then we want to enjoy every minute of it. This little baby deserves to be loved with every thing we have.. and thats what we plan on doing...
Snowflake... please don't melt away... the only thing we want you to melt... is our hearts x
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